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    February 29

    I think my grandpa would have been a Freegan in today's world.

    Oprah has definitely changed my life in so many good ways via her show.  She gives back to society and is an example for all.  This past Wednesday's show was to bring to light the life of the "Freegan".  These people - most who don't have to mind you, but choose to - live primarily off of things - including food - scavenged out of the trash.  They are people that are just disgusted with the way perfectly good items are just thrown out to fill up landfills, that could be used or consumed.  We are a society of wasters.  We are also a society of people that just can't seem to posses enough STUFF.  Most of us also believe that THINGS will make us happy, so we buy, buy, buy to try and attain that feeling.  Those of us who have come to realize that this is not the case are truly blessed.  It is the one most important lesson I am hoping to teach my children and one that I am truly struggling with.  I am also probably the one that made it the struggle that it is now.  *sigh*  I learned the lesson just a tad late and unfortunately spoiled them early on, now that has to be undone, which is no easy task.

    Anyhow, I thought I'd share this story with you from my childhood, which my family would probably die from embarrassment for me telling.....but what they don't know - won't hurt them right?  *wink*

    My maternal grandfather was, to say the VERY least, a thrifty man.  He and I had a very close relationship.  I was the only granddaughter with 6 grandsons, until my little sister came along 13 years later.  I also lived with my grandparents for a while after my parents got divorced while my mom got herself pulled together - she pretty much so had a nervous breakdown after being left heavily in debt, with no job and had to rebuild a life for us.  I was about 6 when I went to stay with them, and I became my grandfather's shadow.  I learned so many important lessons from my grandfather during this time I had with him, and I truly believe I turned out the way I did due to his strict but loving guidance.  I chopped wood with him, worked in his garden alongside him, helped shingle their roof, he taught me how to change a tire and how to drive a stick shift way before I was even old enough to drive.  There are so many memories.  However, he was known by many, to be a harsh man.  He beat my uncle as a child and was verbally abusive to my grandmother for most of their lives together.  I know these things were horrible, but, I also knew another man.  I knew a man that opened up his soft side to me, and I think that must not have been known by many, because when he died, it seemed to be surprising to everyone how hard it hit me.  It also hit my oldest cousin Jay particularly hard.  I think we just had a special place in his heart, and we had just been closer to him I guess.  I'm sure it wasn't that he loved any of the other grandchildren any less, it's just that we had spent a lot of special time with him I'm sure.  ANYHOW....*smiles*....this unique and perplexing man, was always tight with his money.  He had worked hard all his life, lived during the depression, saved and invested his money wisely and wasn't going to part with it willy nilly.  My grandmother, even though life with him was no bowl of cherries, she will tell you she is very thankful to him for how well he prepared for their future.  She lives quite comfortably with no worries about money.  HOWEVER....getting to that point, took living somewhat under the principals of the Freegan.

    You didn't flush the toilet when you urinated...only when you pooped.  (Yes, the toilet would stink)  blah!

    You should only use 5 squares of toilet paper to wipe.  (gross - I know - I always broke this rule....Tongue out)

    I was only allowed about 2 inches of lukewarm water to bathe in.  (I hated bath time)  *smiles*

    If you put it on your plate....you ate it.

    You DID NOT leave lights on in rooms you left - ESPECIALLY after playing in the basement.  

    The house was always a little chilly in the winter and warm in the summer.

    The candy bar aisle lining the checkout counters were simply the store's way of trying to soak you for every last cent they could get out of you at the last minute.......so don't even think about it!

    When we went out to eat at the local steak house where they charged 5 cents extra for these little pats of butter for your baked potato - you didn't EVEN ask for it.  *smiles*  Once I snuck one on my tray and upon review of the receipt at the table, it was like the great inquisition.  My mother knew it must have been me and was literally afraid for my life.  Open-mouthed

    If you were driving down the road - or highway - and you passed what you thought might be a can - (I was always on the look-out)....HECK YES....you backed up and picked it up!  It was recyclable....sometimes you got lucky and it actually had soda or beer in it!  (If you were offered a drink in a can at my grandparents house....you ALWAYS washed it!)  *smiles*

    Every week, my job was to go down to the basement and smash cans with a sledge hammer - in the RIGHT WAY, with just 2 hits - center and then ends together - to take to the recycling center.

    Saturday and Sunday mornings after I had been to "church" with my grandmother, it was off to the local bars....to dumpster dive.  LOL  My grandfather would help me into the dumpsters where I would fish out all of the empty beer cans for recycling.  Surprisingly, we would find full cans amongst the empties as well.  OMG.  I can only imagine what I must have smelled like.  I do remember his car always smelled like beer.  If he ever got pulled over they would have surely thought he was an alcoholic and probably driving under the influence....*smiles*  Ahhhh....good memories.  LOL

    February 26

    David Archuleta....the next American Idol

    David Archuleta I've been watching American Idol since it started and I don't think I've ever seen such a decisive front runner so early on, as I've seen this season.  The adorable David Archuleta, only 17 years old, is to me, the apparent winner and there are still 20 contestants left in the competition.  I felt watching his incredible performance tonight, like I was watching the beginning of a superstar's career.  He has just incredible vocal control and it is so effortless.  He also looks alot like my little brother....*smiles*Uncle Brandon 

    Click here to watch David's performance last night - singing a portion of John Lennon's "Imagine"

    February 17

    Katie the can opener

    KatieWhen Katie wants something....she is relentless.  It's probably the Rottweiler breed, but I've always said she has OCD.  In my last post I noted that we've been treating our Bella like a princess as of late - because she's been so sick, and because of this we've been feeding her a special diet which includes canned food - a delicacy around here.  I guess last night when I left a can sitting on the counter, it was just too much of a temptation for her.  It was 2/3 full with one of those plastic caps on it - and I'm sure that getting that off was no problem - but the food itself is very thick and when her tongue wasn't able to remove the contents - she obviously resorted to using her teeth.  Needless to say after seeing the pictures - when we found her - there was some damage done to her mouth.  Her chin, tongue, gums and lips had several bleeding wounds.  She appeared to not care in the least.  I cleaned her up and am hoping the blood will come out of the cover we fortunately keep over our futon where they like to lounge around. 

    OH....and yes....I too feel she earned a can of her own....without the sharp metal slicing up her mouth.  *smiles*  Crazy dog.

    Katie's can  Katie's can 4Katie's futon after chewing up her can

    February 16

    An update before I get back into the swing of things

    It's been a long 2 weeks since my last entry.  My Bella's last bloodwork came back with discouraging results.  Even though she was appearing to get better to me, her bloodwork was telling a different story.  Since the day we brought her home from the vet, we've LITERALLY treated Bella like a princess.  She can't be around the big dogs - for fear they'll accidentally bump her around or step on her - which could cause massive bleeding I guess with her platelets being so out of whack.  She has had the living room and our bedroom to herself with the occasional visit with the other shih-tzus.  (I actually don't think she likes this though - she prefers to be with ALL of her doggy family)  She has to be carried up and down the front porch steps to go out potty (so her low hanging belly doesn't get inadvertantly bumped)  She gets to eat canned food because she's on a special diet AND she gets/has to eat 3 times a day - every 8 hours - because of her meds.  She needs those every 8 hours as well.   It's been a lot of work.  I took her in again yesterday for more bloodwork and I told the vet that if these results don't come back NORMAL, I'd be shocked - she's doing that well.  She's absolutely every bit the Bella she used to be.  The vet agreed that she looked great and she'd get back with me today, as  soon as she got the results. I am very optimistic.  ALSO...I got my results from my MRI last Thursday and the spots on my liver were cysts and hemangiomas - which I guess are perfectly normal and lots of people have them.  They shouldn't be causing me the pain though, so now she wants me to come in and discuss what the next step is....she's thinking a gastroentiologist - or whatever they're called.  I'm thinking I may just wait and see how it goes since the pain seems to have let up  considerably.  I'm just thankful to have the news that the liver spots were normal.  That was a huge relief.  The enlarged lymph node wasn't even mentioned in the report, so I'm assuming that was a non-issue as well.  Anyhow, it made for a relaxing Valentine's Day.
    I got my boys each a little Skittles filled heart - and they both were really tickled that I had.  I also was attempting to help bridge the gap with my oldest son by purchasing for him a little stuffed hedge-hog to give to his "girl friend".  I've made no secret of my disapproval of this obsession of his to have a girlfriend at this age, and in doing so, I realize I have alienated him even more .  After discussing the issue with his therapist and his pediatrician, I guess the bottomline is I have to just accept it and keep my eyes and thumb on it.  The therapist actually thought that boys like Tyler that have difficulties making friends often turn to the more accepting and listening gender for a confidant.  My problem with Tyler is that he just tries to act so much older than he is.  This particular little girl seems to get Tyler riled quite a bit about other boys flirting with her and I just don't think it's a good  match for him.  lol  I know it's not likely to last much longer - though it has lasted 6 months now - but it seems everyday Tyler is upset by her or mad at someone for something they said or did to her.  It's been a good chance for us to try and teach him that this is EXACTLY why you shouldn't get attached to any ONE person until you are ready to marry, but I know that's like talking to a brick wall.  I "went out" with boys that young - we called it "going together" back then., but I know I was a heck of a lot more mature and made much better decisions than my son does.  We are just going to have to be parents and parent.  Tom and I decided last night that there really isn't a reason for there to be "un-chaperoned, one-on-one dating" until he's 17.  I'm really going to need the lord on my side to make sure that rule gets followed  though.  ;)  Anyhow, after I got home with groceries and Tyler very willingly unloaded my car and cleaned up trash (that some BAD DOGS got into) without being asked!!!!!  OMG!!!  THAT never happens!!!  Surprised I pulled out the little pink hedge-hog and handed it to him and told him it was for him to give to his girlfriend.  It definately went a long way in mending fences.  Tom thought I might be encouraging the relationship, but I'm thinking with Tyler being the way he is, it's better to know we are on his side than against him.  We just have to keep the boundaries clear. 
    Well, that's about it for now, off to get ready for a day trip with my sister in-laws.  Me and the 3 of them  that live here in Columbus are headed up to Tiffin for our nieces baby shower.  I'm hoping to try and blog about some on Sunday....I've missed what's been going on in Spaces for the past month or so.  Thanks for all of your kind comments and visits....I hope to be about to check in with all of my old friends soon.
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    February 01

    Answered prayers....I am still in shock

    I have been praying and praying.  I told God I if he felt it was Bella's time, he was doing it for reason's I did not understand, but I knew it wasn't always my place to understand his "reasons".  I just let him know it was my wish that he let her stay with me a little longer - that I felt I had unfinished business with her.  I know that sounds ridiculous, but I did.  I brought her home and cherished her - she was Princess Bella.  She was such the perfect dog that I wanted to have more of her.  Before having her fixed I went out and selected a beautiful and lovable all black male pup to mate her with.  They eventually had a litter of pups and after a heartbreaking decision, I selected 2, a male and female to keep for myself and sold the 2 remaining pups.  I had done it because I had adored my Bella so much, I just knew she would have wonderful descendants, and I wanted to have one of them for after she had passed on.  My thinking was a bit skewed and it wasn't until this bout of illness that I realized that no matter what, no dog could ever replace her.  I love her babies tremendously, but they are not Bella.  When she is gone, she will be gone and only her memories will remain.  Yes, I will have her babies, and she will be a part of them, but it is not the same.  Anyhow, in having these other pups around, I haven't treated my original princess as I used to, and I have some making up to do, and my vet gave me the news this morning that I have been praying for.....the medicine is starting to work.  *smiles like I can't express here in words*
     
    I can bring her home this afternoon with some restrictions - and that's ok with me.  She can't be bumped as her platelets are still very low and she'll still be on several medications.  I don't know all the details yet....I'm going in around 4pm for the Docs to go over everything with me, but whatever it is, it doesn't matter.  My Isabella is coming home.  I thank you for your caring and prayers - I thank God for this miracle.  Right now, I have nothing but love and faith and happiness in my heart and I may need that for my own journey coming up.....
     
    This is wild.
     
    The day after the vet told me about Bella's condition......it being liver related and that she had a massive infection....my doctor called with the results from my recent ultrasound and CT scans.  They found spots on my liver and an adjacent lymph node that was enlarged considerably that probably indicates infection.  Crazy huh?  I know this sounds ridiculous, but I was (somewhere in the back of my whacked out brain) waiting for her prognosis to point to mine....lol.  Yes, I am a loon.  Anyhow, my MRI on the 7th and some additional blood work will really indicate the true meaning of the spots and cause of the enlarged lymph node.  Keeping my prayers up and knowing with Bella home, I can handle it all a little better.